Do you doubt?

You see me every time.

You've seen,

How I get affected, my tone changes, mood frowns

Even when it's for smallest of the things.

You've beheld my tears, or smiles

Even when it comes to smallest of the things.

You've seen me

Thinking too much

Even about smallest of the things.

You've seen me

Thinking and thinking and thinking

Over and over and over, again.

Even when I know it only worsens

You've seen me do it, all over again and again.

You've seen me every time

And yet failed to actually see through.

You've seen me

And yet keep asking "Why do you do it?".

You've seen me

And yet can't stop simply suggesting "Don't do it".

You've seen me

And yet keep telling "Stay away from those thoughts"

You've seen me

And yet couldn't realize those suggestions hurt.

You've seen over and over again

And yet can't seem to care what actually helps.

You've seen me

And yet your responses only worsen me.

You've seen me

And yet can't stop when I shout "stop" in silence.

You've seen me.

You tell me to look at myself.

Do you doubt that I haven't seen myself?

Do you doubt that I hate myself for I can't stop?

Do you doubt that I need help and you aren't helping?

Do you doubt that I haven't seen myself?

Do you doubt these words are the proof that I'm not healed?