I'm Anita. These are the stories and circumstances I encountered with. I've tried my best to present the people and the situations I ran into and my thoughts on them, and also the moral I got from them.
तिमी गएको निकै वर्ष भयो, आउँछु भनेर नआएको पनि निकै वर्ष भयो, एकअर्कालाई नदेखेको निकै वर्ष भयो, चित्रमा त चिन्छौँ हामी, यत्तिका वर्षपछि भेट्यौँ भने, आमनेसामने भयौँ भने, मलाई तिमी, तिमी जस्तो अनि तिमीलाई म, म जस्तो लाग्छ कि लाग्दैन होला?
I merely use my phone to actually make calls. Or rather, I used to but not any more. I make an appointment for myself. Schedule the call I'm supposed to make. A few days or at least hours beforehand. Yet that doesn't seem enough. I take time, a lot. I postpone a few times. Prove that I'm a helluv a procrastinator. Finally, I start thinking. And then overthink, of course. I make the call in my mind. Make those awkward convos and silences. And end up messing it up. It makes it harder to actually dial. If in case I succeed in dialing, I also end up succeeding in messing it up. I know It's me who've been pushing people away. And this is exactly how I do it. I don't really get calls. And the ones I merely get are all missed. I just stare at them. I take time. And one full ring never seems enough. The ringtone makes me more nervous. I just slide it to silence. And now, the mere calls don't ring the second time. ...
ज्यान सिरिङ्ग हुन्छ, भित्री मुटुमै छुन्छ तिम्रा शब्दको बहावसँगै बहकिन्छु म अनायास रोकिन्छु, अनि रोकिदिन्छु मन यसलाई त ढुङ्गा बन्नु छ अहँ हुन्न, ढुङ्गालाई ममताले कहाँँ छुन्छ मायामै सबै समस्याको हल हुन्छ रे झुट हो सब, धेरै समस्या त माया भित्रै हुन्छ टाढै बस मन, तिमलाई त ढुङ्गा बन्नु छ मैले देख्या छु, मायामा मन छिया छिया हुन्छ
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