It's not that I am not in love.

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11th Dec. 2017

He says he loves me a lot. But it’s not that I haven’t felt it. I know he does. Words I speak to him never express that I also love him. But it’s not that I don’t. I happen to over think and imagine the days to come when we won’t be together. I imagine situations that will make us apart. I imagine situations that won’t let us continue our talks and meetings. And I end up binding my feelings, holding me back from expressing the actual feeling I feel for him. But it’s not that I don’t want to express. I want to stay open to him, I want to love him freely. I don’t like myself holding me back. I am hating to pretend that I don’t love him.

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