Null, Not Null.
These days, when I hear hard times people are going through, I feel lucky to not have been going through those same hard times, but I somehow force myself to have the flash backs of the times I'd been through, I force myself to remind myself about my present situations and I find myself forcing myself, all of a sudden, to feel the stress on my hair. And I realize how much I hate those situations. And then I remind myself of how much I need to feel strong at the moment. Knowingly or not, I realize how I am keeping myself off the stresses. And at the same time, I also realize how I'm avoiding or ignoring situations where I actually need to stress about, and that's one fact I sometimes seriously stress about. Avoid people, interactions, share less of my worries, that's what I'm doing these days. I can also sense how bad can these consequent to, but I'm not able to bring back the one or two years' back version of me. I somehow don't want to go back ...